weight and body issues

Current weight: 146.4 lbs
Change from last week: -1.6 lb
Total Change: -78.6 lbs

note to self: see... Wednesday night's lasagna didn't instantly put 5 lbs back on ya or anything....does exercising like a crazy person mean I can eat like a normal one?

Actually, I don't think I'm over exercising. I'm pleased with my progress and current level of activity. 30-35 miles per week of jogging is a decent distance training amount; I could participate in 10k to half marathon races again and be able to enjoy those distances.

Yes, I've gotten where I am (positively?) addicted to the exercise, but I am not showing exercise bulimia. Fretting about Italian food besides, I am not just or really using exercise to work off calories or as punishment for eating "bad" foods. Yes, I schedule exercise into my day, but it doesn't interfere with the rest of life.

Still working on figuring out calorie levels to maintain weight. Still wondering what fluctuation of plus or minus is normal for me? Would be content (no, actually I'd be fucking ecstatic) with long term maintenance of my weight around where it is (in a 145-150 lb range). I don't need to keep losing; I don't need to heed the vanity voice inside calling out "but you COULD...". I'm not 20 anymore and I don't need to weigh 120. Being skinnier is not going to make me any prettier or any happier.

Is this clear thinking or rationalization on my part?

Culturally, why do women (more so than men?) have issues like these? Personally, why do I get so obsessed with all this body stuff anyway?

plans for the day (Fri 13th)

Am off work today, as I am working tomorrow. (it's not my usual library weekend, but one of my coworkers needed the day off to attend a funeral)

Need to deposit my paycheck in the bank. Pay some bills.

Go for a jog.

Baking to do.

Probably books and a bath in there somewhere too.

Later Edits:
7.75 mile jog.
Money in the bank.
Baked 2 key lime cheesecakes w/gingersnap cookie crusts. Can I blame the gremlins--the tops cracked some? At least I can can hide that with whipped cream topping.
Made chocolate/hazelnut truffles (used up the leftover ganache I had).
Ate one truffle (quality/flavor check).

CALL ME (a ditz)

Someone who has my phone number...please call me...and let the damn phone ring....I know my phone is in the apartment somewhere but I can't find it!!!

LATER EDIT: FOUND IT. It was in that black hole I call a purse...

EDIT AGAIN: LOL!!! I must have Friday the 13th gremlins or something.... I was doing my baking project and couldn't find the bottle of key lime juice I just bought last night! How many times can you look in the fridge and cupboards before thinking to go look in the car to see if it rolled out of the shopping bag? Lots!

Darn it...those gremlins had better stay out of my oven now!!!!!