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So... I want to keep my weight around where it is now. I want to keep wearing the size clothes I currently fit into. I want to keep up my fitness level. So far, so good, the numbers over the last month have stayed pretty stable-- but I'm still feeling wobbly about maintenance behaviors and habits.

I may even be more obsessive than I have been about keeping track of things for a while here, accountablitity and making sure I don't slide back into bad habits or laziness. Figuring out what and how I can eat to maintain. May just post all the boring numbers and food lists private tho.

Was browsing online at the running club sites for groups here locally and in Nashville. Hmm...a few 10ks on the calendar, but not many races coming up for the summer months; too damn hot I guess. But I need something to keep me motivated...maybe look ahead to doing some marathons later in the fall. Wouldn't really have to kick up training until August; just hold steady for the next several months. 5-6 days per week; 20-30 miles per week; long runs in the 8-11 mile range...

3.5 mile walk at lunch today.

5 mile jog. 40 degrees and drizzling; and possible snow flurries in the forecast! But,but, what about the irises, the lilacs and the dogwwod blossoms?

weigh in at WW meeting.
Current weight: 138.8 lb
Change since last weigh in (2 weeks): -.8 lb

Current weight: 142.8 lbs
Change since last weigh in (1 week): -1.6 lbs
Total loss= 82.1 lbs
BMI: 24.5


heh...bet most of this loss was the result of wearing long sleeved black out in the sun all afternoon yesterday and just dehydrated water loss.


Hmmm...so, I've lost 5 more pounds over the last month. That's with one binge and New Orleans excesses. And some slightly lower exercise amounts. Still working on the health & maintenance thing (and guess I always will be!)

later edit: 4 mile fast jog.

Current weight: 146.4 lbs
Change from last week: -1.6 lb
Total Change: -78.6 lbs

note to self: see... Wednesday night's lasagna didn't instantly put 5 lbs back on ya or anything....does exercising like a crazy person mean I can eat like a normal one?

Actually, I don't think I'm over exercising. I'm pleased with my progress and current level of activity. 30-35 miles per week of jogging is a decent distance training amount; I could participate in 10k to half marathon races again and be able to enjoy those distances.

Yes, I've gotten where I am (positively?) addicted to the exercise, but I am not showing exercise bulimia. Fretting about Italian food besides, I am not just or really using exercise to work off calories or as punishment for eating "bad" foods. Yes, I schedule exercise into my day, but it doesn't interfere with the rest of life.

Still working on figuring out calorie levels to maintain weight. Still wondering what fluctuation of plus or minus is normal for me? Would be content (no, actually I'd be fucking ecstatic) with long term maintenance of my weight around where it is (in a 145-150 lb range). I don't need to keep losing; I don't need to heed the vanity voice inside calling out "but you COULD...". I'm not 20 anymore and I don't need to weigh 120. Being skinnier is not going to make me any prettier or any happier.

Is this clear thinking or rationalization on my part?

Culturally, why do women (more so than men?) have issues like these? Personally, why do I get so obsessed with all this body stuff anyway?

Current weight: 156.4 lb
Change from last week: -4.6 lb
Total Change: -68.6 lb

Well what do you know.... I took a somewhat easier exercise week, ate a couple hundred more calories per day, and dropped almost 5 pounds! :) Will try about the same plan for this week and see what happens.

Reality check time....I *think* I'm about done losing weight? Have I done enough?

exercise note: F 5 mile jog. Almost wussed out and took a rest day because it was so cold today.

Current weight: 160.2 lb
Change from last week: -1.4 lb
Total Change: -64.8 lb

vanity (#10): I went window shopping yesterday, was able to *squeeze* into a pair of size 10 pants. I've dropped at least 10 clothing sizes. I've lowered my BMI by 10 points. I can jog 10 miles. I lost 10 lbs between Thanksgiving and New Years; that's much better than gaining over the holidays! But I could/should lose 10 more pounds.

exercise note: short 2.5 mile lunch walk

Current weight: 161.8 lb
Change from last week: -3.2 lb
Total Change: -63.2 lb

tmi: ( annoying_inconvenient_body_wonky_girl_stuff )

Current weight: 167.2 lb
Change from last week: -3.2 lb
Total Change: -57.8 lb

Am expecting a low loss next week, as the last three weeks have seen big drops. I guess mixing up my workouts with jogging and walking has helped, and the couple of earlier weeks where I plateaued was just my body readjusting.

Went over the the Flying Monkey last night to listen to some fine music. The Huntsville Gallery Tour was also going on, so all the shops and studios were open too! Really enjoyed Mambo Gris Gris; would have enjoyed it more if I knew how to dance salsa, chacha or zydeco (and had someone to kick up my heels with), but happily settled this evening for toe-tapping listening and watching the folks who did know the steps! Also had a nice chat with the owner of Karma Rags (and of course found something I wanted to buy), and stopped in briefly to say hello to theverticalbar. The Flying Monkey Arts Center is such a wonderful place; I really want to make the effort to go from being just an avid event attendee to being a more active creative part of this community.

Current weight: 175.4 lb
Change from last week: -3.2 lb
Total Change: -49.6 lb

See, perseverance and patience pays off (and successfully staying away from the sugar goodies from 2 parties at work this last week) :)

Did ya notice? I am a-l-m-o-s-t to a nice big "fat" round number of having lost 50 lbs. :)

Current weight: 177.4 pounds
Change from last week: -1.2 lbs
Total Change: -47.6 lbs

exercise for week: 30 miles total

no morning walk yet today, it's raining. :(