More of this is me

I'm planning to attend a couple tattoo convention events soon. One is next weekend  http://www.immersedinink.com/home.html and one later in April  http://www.fullmooninc.net/nashville-full-moon-festival

Below is a sketch (top left of collaged images) showing  (not to scale and give or take) my current body shape and current areas of tattoo coverage.

I'm making myself crazy trying to decide what to wear and how to best display my ink. The only way I can show it all off at once is to go naked (and actually the time I had the most fun and felt the most comfortable showing off my ink WAS at a nudists' event), but am fretting now on how much to cover up and how much to reveal?

I'm making myself crazy about being chubby; I want to be all ok with it as who I am, but...I'm having trouble these days with my self image and accepting Size Acceptance for my own back fat and belly rolls. I don't think the biggest problem is even in how I look, but that I've been failing with healthy behaviors around food and eating. It's been slippery slopes and downward spirals and all that for the last several months.

As for my upcoming social events, I'll probably go through my closet and try on dozens shirts and skirts in a myriad of outfits. I may go thrift store shopping on Monday and see if I spot anything to alter into some sort of backless shirt or dress. I don't know.

Being a shy exhibitionist is an oxymoron, a conundrum, and a pain.


btw, the lower left is me; the images on the right are snagged from the internet (and maybe a tattoo idea..)