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Half Fullness
Mar. 23rd, 2014 10:07 amFirst thoughts: Meh; another wasted week.
Second thoughts: no, I have to take that back. Life isn't all bad. :)
The BIG positive these days is with B. It is so unusually nice to feel secure in a relationship, about loving and being loved. Except for feeling somewhat like I'm letting him down with my being so moody and listless right now; I don't give enough back for all he gives me.
This weekend marks the 4th year anniversary of our "first date". I don't really remember it by a specific calendar date, but by when the annual local McKay Hollow Madness trail race is held. That year, 2010, I ran McKay's in the morning; got a tattoo at Blue Rose in the afternoon, and had a date with B in the evening. lol...needless to say, I was hyped up on all kinds of endorphins that day. This was our first vanilla-social date. We had dinner at Bandito Buritto and went to a movie. I do fondly recall ending the evening with first kisses and making out in Bandito's parking lot. I do kinda miss NRE fueled make out sessions, but there certainly is a lot to be said for long term commitment/contentment as well.
Over 5 years since we met. 4 years building a relationship. Somewhere around 2.5 years living together. 1.5 of being married. Compared to previous relationships, this is beginning to look like a winning "ultra". :)
More mundanely, I've recently been sick with some sort of massive sinus & respiratory unhappiness. Not sure if its seasonal allergies with all the damn Bradford pear trees in bloom or a cold/flu virus or some combination of plights. But its been six days of over-the-counter med concotions and feeling miserable now. Sinus headaches; body aches; fatigues; sore throat; congestion. etc, etc. MIssed one day of work while laid out in bed running a fever (which was the only running I did this week), and then missed another because I lost my voice. Actually, I went in that second day, and lasted about two hours before giving up the ghost and realizing that trying to provide front desk customer service with no voice and a hacking cough is not really a viable option. Ugh.
There was a tattoo event, Immersed in Ink Tattoo & Horror Fest, here in Huntsville this weekend. Renee and I went over for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. I'd been obsessing for days about what to wear and over if I was going to enter any of the tat contests.(got several nice compliments on my tattoos and on the rib-cage cameo corset I was wearing, but ,no, I didn't enter any contests) Overall, I was underwhelmed. The event was smaller than I'd hoped, and then the venue hall was too small even for that. The contests and events stage was badly located and there was no way more than a small handful of people could gather to view what was going on there. There were some sideshow acts and a suspension demo, but again disappointingly couldn't see a damn thing. Kinda wish I had brought along my Bride of Frankenstien costume; I prolly coulda won the costume contest with it, but I'd opted for a less elaborate more comfortable outfit that showed off more ink. Had, of course, entertained the idea of getting ink, but was not wildly impressed by anyone's portfolio pr booth presence. (I'm more than happy with the local team at Blue Rose) Maybe just feeling out of sorts was making me bitchy as well though; there were some interesting looking folks and decent ink about. Did enjoy looking at the row of horror "celebrity" booths hawking their dvds and photos. Hey Ken, "Michael Myers" was there...
Am really hoping that the Full Moon Tattoo and Horror Festival in Nashville next month is a step up from this event. (I've been to the Full Moon a couple of previous years and enjoyed it). It seems to have a stronger line-up and hopefully will be better organized. I'm really looking forward to taking my daughter and son-in-law to that, and hope it's a good first con experience for Ken. (I think this one would have been a let down for him).
Feeling pretty useless and un-creative. Spent a bit of time here and there on various crafts projects recently, and most of it just ended up in the trash. And I've got at least a half dozen half-done projects in disawry all around around the house. Can't recall the last time I actually did something, finished it, and felt good about the effort. I miss being artsy; I need to do something to find my muse again.
Ditto on feeling healthy. Ditto on being fit and active. I'm not. I miss not being in shape enough to go do what I want to do (ultra events). Need to start from scratch once again. (Not sure if this is the same as above muse I'm searching for or another one...)
This will probably be a usual sort of Sunday for me today. Ditz on the computer here. Make a stab at cleaning up some and getting organized. Stick my nose in a book and read for a while. Answer the phone is my daughter or sister calls. Maybe go out for an easy walk (but still too congested and feeling sinus sicky for any attempt at a real workout). Stuff like that.
Second thoughts: no, I have to take that back. Life isn't all bad. :)
The BIG positive these days is with B. It is so unusually nice to feel secure in a relationship, about loving and being loved. Except for feeling somewhat like I'm letting him down with my being so moody and listless right now; I don't give enough back for all he gives me.
This weekend marks the 4th year anniversary of our "first date". I don't really remember it by a specific calendar date, but by when the annual local McKay Hollow Madness trail race is held. That year, 2010, I ran McKay's in the morning; got a tattoo at Blue Rose in the afternoon, and had a date with B in the evening. lol...needless to say, I was hyped up on all kinds of endorphins that day. This was our first vanilla-social date. We had dinner at Bandito Buritto and went to a movie. I do fondly recall ending the evening with first kisses and making out in Bandito's parking lot. I do kinda miss NRE fueled make out sessions, but there certainly is a lot to be said for long term commitment/contentment as well.
Over 5 years since we met. 4 years building a relationship. Somewhere around 2.5 years living together. 1.5 of being married. Compared to previous relationships, this is beginning to look like a winning "ultra". :)
More mundanely, I've recently been sick with some sort of massive sinus & respiratory unhappiness. Not sure if its seasonal allergies with all the damn Bradford pear trees in bloom or a cold/flu virus or some combination of plights. But its been six days of over-the-counter med concotions and feeling miserable now. Sinus headaches; body aches; fatigues; sore throat; congestion. etc, etc. MIssed one day of work while laid out in bed running a fever (which was the only running I did this week), and then missed another because I lost my voice. Actually, I went in that second day, and lasted about two hours before giving up the ghost and realizing that trying to provide front desk customer service with no voice and a hacking cough is not really a viable option. Ugh.
There was a tattoo event, Immersed in Ink Tattoo & Horror Fest, here in Huntsville this weekend. Renee and I went over for a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. I'd been obsessing for days about what to wear and over if I was going to enter any of the tat contests.(got several nice compliments on my tattoos and on the rib-cage cameo corset I was wearing, but ,no, I didn't enter any contests) Overall, I was underwhelmed. The event was smaller than I'd hoped, and then the venue hall was too small even for that. The contests and events stage was badly located and there was no way more than a small handful of people could gather to view what was going on there. There were some sideshow acts and a suspension demo, but again disappointingly couldn't see a damn thing. Kinda wish I had brought along my Bride of Frankenstien costume; I prolly coulda won the costume contest with it, but I'd opted for a less elaborate more comfortable outfit that showed off more ink. Had, of course, entertained the idea of getting ink, but was not wildly impressed by anyone's portfolio pr booth presence. (I'm more than happy with the local team at Blue Rose) Maybe just feeling out of sorts was making me bitchy as well though; there were some interesting looking folks and decent ink about. Did enjoy looking at the row of horror "celebrity" booths hawking their dvds and photos. Hey Ken, "Michael Myers" was there...
Am really hoping that the Full Moon Tattoo and Horror Festival in Nashville next month is a step up from this event. (I've been to the Full Moon a couple of previous years and enjoyed it). It seems to have a stronger line-up and hopefully will be better organized. I'm really looking forward to taking my daughter and son-in-law to that, and hope it's a good first con experience for Ken. (I think this one would have been a let down for him).
Feeling pretty useless and un-creative. Spent a bit of time here and there on various crafts projects recently, and most of it just ended up in the trash. And I've got at least a half dozen half-done projects in disawry all around around the house. Can't recall the last time I actually did something, finished it, and felt good about the effort. I miss being artsy; I need to do something to find my muse again.
Ditto on feeling healthy. Ditto on being fit and active. I'm not. I miss not being in shape enough to go do what I want to do (ultra events). Need to start from scratch once again. (Not sure if this is the same as above muse I'm searching for or another one...)
This will probably be a usual sort of Sunday for me today. Ditz on the computer here. Make a stab at cleaning up some and getting organized. Stick my nose in a book and read for a while. Answer the phone is my daughter or sister calls. Maybe go out for an easy walk (but still too congested and feeling sinus sicky for any attempt at a real workout). Stuff like that.
