weighty matters/maybe this time

Thing #1) While I was babysitting, I was upset and dissappointed that I was barely able to "run" fast enough to keep up with the kiddos. I'm really out of shape and back to couch potato status. I bitch and moan about that, but havent yet been able to make a continued effort to regain any fitness.

Thing #2) I had an acquaintance, at the library, mention to me all the weight I had lost about five years ago. To which I replied back about how I had also regained the weight. She then commented, "well at least you "got" and married your husband when you were thin".  That is just wrong on so many levels, from the idea of "catching a husband" to the notion that fat girls will have a harder time finding a partner, to thinking body size has to do with love.

Thing #3) Damn Facebook, it will randomly re-post your "memories" (past posts) and most of what comes on mine are old running photos from when I was both fit and thinner.  I miss running long distances, and how I felt when I was able to do so.

Thing #4) I've lost over 100 pounds TWICE already and each time gradually gained it back; I just don't know if I can do that again. I don't know if I want to. But I do wonder where the connection and the balance between weight and fitness lies.

Thing #5) I believe in the principle of Health At Every Size; I just have to start really living it and working to be fit again. Let go of lingering "if I were thinner" thinking anf focus on increasing my  activity, movelment and fitness.

Tuesday: 1.7 miles
Wednesday 1.7 miles  babystepping
Thursday 1 mile