still stepping slowly

Made it iinto week two of walking
M 2 miles
T 2,5 miles

i plan to do three weeks of just getting back into it walking and then might try a "couch to 5K walk/run program".

Mentally, I  *think* I could probably do a lot more (because my brain remembers doing it before), but my body is having to start over and I don't want to go out too fast too far and hurt myself before I even start to get in shape again. I just can't rush things. I wasted a bunch of money earler in the year by registering for a couple races I reallly wasn't up to doing, and I wasn't training, and so was a did-not-start. So, obivously, that didn't work as a bribe or motivation. I'm telling myself I'm not registering for ANYTHING for several months, well like six months, maybe even nothing til next  spring's Delano. That's really my goal, to be fit for Delano and be able to do more miles than I did this year (26).

This is really tough on my ego/self esteem/self identity. I had a lot of myself invested in the long distnce running, and it hurts that bit by bit I let it fall away until I'm back to scratch.

today's done list:
got up at 6:30 to go for a walk, just a mile to loosen up.
meds appt at 8:30. getting a new med to try, but of course walmart's pharmacy had to order it in, so will make another trip back tomorrow.
stopped at Starbucks for a coffee.
stopped at thrift store and found a skinny red belt.
stopped at Wilson Morgan Park and walked another 1.5 mile.
worked 11-8 (still have 45 minutes t go as I write this)

such is life.