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Aug. 16th, 2016 01:01 pmand life goes on. Nothing terribly exciting, nothing terribly bad, just "Meh" I guess.
I do need to pick up another of my projects and begin to do something creative again. Since finishing the quilt, I've been sleeping way too much on the weekends. (May have something to do with the naltrexone). Being lazy once in a while is ok, if one is enjoying it. I'm not enjoying it, just coming home and going to sleep early and then doing nothing on the weekends and hating myself for it.
Haven't been totally uncreative, I did (do til the end of the month) have a display of my art/craft works up in the library display cases. It was nice to be asked to do this. And I also baked and decorated a "red velvet armadillo cake" for a library showing of Steel Magnolias.
Am satisfied that I have kept up with walking on a regular basis.Progress is still slow, and am still only in the 2-4 mile daily range.
My most recent meds appt. was on Monday. Antidepressants are basically doing their job, even with crawling into a hole on the weekends, I am still mostly ok and coping. The Naltrexone is working too. It has REALLY cut down my binging. Not perfectly, I still had two binges in the six weeks' time, but that was all and I was able to stop sooner than I might have before. I have still been eating too many sweets, but at least the craving to binge on them is lessened, now it's just indulging in desserts. I've lost 11 pounds (ok, just for data, the number is 201 lbs) I really liked the first week or so of being on the drug, I could "feel" it working and I wasn't much interested in food; that first blast has lessened, but the effect is still there. It's more like I'm just aware of being actually hungry or not hungry, and can listen to my body. During active binging, its a total disconnect with my body and the eating has nothing to do with hunger or nourishment. The natrexone seems to help me stay in control of my eating.
Another two and half weeks til A Race For the Ages. I'm only slightly in better shape that I was for it last year. But no broken toe this year. Am really looking forward to the event. Lol..I'm thinking of this as a "vacation"; pretty weird idea of having fun, huh? I keep dreaming about being in running shape, which I am not; all I can do is all I can do- and we'll see what I can accomplish in 56 hours. Am going to try to sleep less and keep on feet more than I did last year; that's the intention anyway.
I do need to pick up another of my projects and begin to do something creative again. Since finishing the quilt, I've been sleeping way too much on the weekends. (May have something to do with the naltrexone). Being lazy once in a while is ok, if one is enjoying it. I'm not enjoying it, just coming home and going to sleep early and then doing nothing on the weekends and hating myself for it.
Haven't been totally uncreative, I did (do til the end of the month) have a display of my art/craft works up in the library display cases. It was nice to be asked to do this. And I also baked and decorated a "red velvet armadillo cake" for a library showing of Steel Magnolias.
Am satisfied that I have kept up with walking on a regular basis.Progress is still slow, and am still only in the 2-4 mile daily range.
My most recent meds appt. was on Monday. Antidepressants are basically doing their job, even with crawling into a hole on the weekends, I am still mostly ok and coping. The Naltrexone is working too. It has REALLY cut down my binging. Not perfectly, I still had two binges in the six weeks' time, but that was all and I was able to stop sooner than I might have before. I have still been eating too many sweets, but at least the craving to binge on them is lessened, now it's just indulging in desserts. I've lost 11 pounds (ok, just for data, the number is 201 lbs) I really liked the first week or so of being on the drug, I could "feel" it working and I wasn't much interested in food; that first blast has lessened, but the effect is still there. It's more like I'm just aware of being actually hungry or not hungry, and can listen to my body. During active binging, its a total disconnect with my body and the eating has nothing to do with hunger or nourishment. The natrexone seems to help me stay in control of my eating.
Another two and half weeks til A Race For the Ages. I'm only slightly in better shape that I was for it last year. But no broken toe this year. Am really looking forward to the event. Lol..I'm thinking of this as a "vacation"; pretty weird idea of having fun, huh? I keep dreaming about being in running shape, which I am not; all I can do is all I can do- and we'll see what I can accomplish in 56 hours. Am going to try to sleep less and keep on feet more than I did last year; that's the intention anyway.
