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A week ago,
Sep. 10th, 2016 03:38 pmI was about a marathon's distance into my long walk at ARFTA.
I've only done a couple very short 1 mile walks since the event, but am bouncing back well enough, So. it's about time to get back to regular training again. and then start upping the distances. I've proved to myself that I can still handle the long efforts. I also proved to myself that I should be able to get back into 5k-10k- maybe even 1/2 marathon shape fairly easy as I keep working with run/walk efforts.(Didn't have any issues with the those first miles of the race.) I just don't know when I'll get back any kind of speed with my ultras; part of me says its going to take some time and effort and maybe losing some weight..
Still taking the naltrxone; its still curbing the impulse to binge. But any weight loss seems to have slowed down and leveled off. Need to watch what I eat as well as how much; still too much processed garbage foods, still too much of an inclination toward sweets and carbs. And balance it with enough exercise. BALANCE BALANCE BALANCE; that's what I want.
Well, yes and no it's not. I mean, I do realize ultra running is obsessive and excessive. Its well beyond what is necessary for fitness. And it is what i want too.
In other unbalanced areas, have noticed I'm tending to hide-in-my-hole at home again. My safe space is the living room couch; from there I can sleep or stick my nose in a book and ignore the mess. Likewise, my bed is another safe spot- sleep or watch dvds. Once I "see" if, I hate it and hate myself; am just not making any progress cleaning in general or with cleaning out the dining room to make it my craft room.
Have started another bottle tree project, and am also doing some folded book art (for the library's table at the upcoming Riverclay Arts Festival). Little bits of creativity. Don't know what's wrong with me, I'm not feeling the siren call of halloween costumes yet this year...I don't even know if I can summon up the motivation to do my grandsons' costumes.
Oh, B had another court appearance at the County level for the City Neatness Ordinance charges he's been fighting got over a year. Case got dimissed, mostly because the original citing officer is now retired. I'll take it, and I'll get back the 1500$ from savings that we had to put up as a bond.
I've only done a couple very short 1 mile walks since the event, but am bouncing back well enough, So. it's about time to get back to regular training again. and then start upping the distances. I've proved to myself that I can still handle the long efforts. I also proved to myself that I should be able to get back into 5k-10k- maybe even 1/2 marathon shape fairly easy as I keep working with run/walk efforts.(Didn't have any issues with the those first miles of the race.) I just don't know when I'll get back any kind of speed with my ultras; part of me says its going to take some time and effort and maybe losing some weight..
Still taking the naltrxone; its still curbing the impulse to binge. But any weight loss seems to have slowed down and leveled off. Need to watch what I eat as well as how much; still too much processed garbage foods, still too much of an inclination toward sweets and carbs. And balance it with enough exercise. BALANCE BALANCE BALANCE; that's what I want.
Well, yes and no it's not. I mean, I do realize ultra running is obsessive and excessive. Its well beyond what is necessary for fitness. And it is what i want too.
In other unbalanced areas, have noticed I'm tending to hide-in-my-hole at home again. My safe space is the living room couch; from there I can sleep or stick my nose in a book and ignore the mess. Likewise, my bed is another safe spot- sleep or watch dvds. Once I "see" if, I hate it and hate myself; am just not making any progress cleaning in general or with cleaning out the dining room to make it my craft room.
Have started another bottle tree project, and am also doing some folded book art (for the library's table at the upcoming Riverclay Arts Festival). Little bits of creativity. Don't know what's wrong with me, I'm not feeling the siren call of halloween costumes yet this year...I don't even know if I can summon up the motivation to do my grandsons' costumes.
Oh, B had another court appearance at the County level for the City Neatness Ordinance charges he's been fighting got over a year. Case got dimissed, mostly because the original citing officer is now retired. I'll take it, and I'll get back the 1500$ from savings that we had to put up as a bond.
